all these time, I was living a superficial life
I wasn’t made to be just a trophy wife
Day in, day out… I longed to be completely whole
It just wasn’t enough for my poor restless soul.
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all these time, I was living a superficial life
I wasn’t made to be just a trophy wife
Day in, day out… I longed to be completely whole
It just wasn’t enough for my poor restless soul.
Continue reading
How to Find Inner Peace
Are you in a very disturbed state of mind and are longing for some inner peace? Read on to know about finding inner peace.
Today the whole world is in a state of conflict and so are we. There are conflicts within us and outside us. External conflicts are a dime a dozen and of seemingly gigantic proportions. However, what’s funny is that the ones inside our heads are really the conflicts that trouble us the most. We have forever been obsessed with materialistic desires and we think (yes, we think) that fulfilling these desires is the key to true happiness. But is that really so? Sure, a new car, the latest state-of-the-art gadget, a swanky apartment, (for some, a new wife or a new husband falls into this category), will provide a feeling of happiness and content. However, this kind of ‘happiness’ is superficial and short lived. Does this happiness translate into inner peace? No, it doesn’t. Well, then how does one find inner peace? Read on to know the answer to this question.
Inner Peace – An Explanation
Before you go about finding it, you should know what exactly inner peace is. Only then will you realize that you have found it, if and when you find it. Inner peace is a state of being, a state of mind. It is when you are oblivious of everything else around you and are one with the universe. When you are at peace with yourself, nothing, and no other thing around you matters any more. It is a spiritual connection between your body, your mind, your soul and the soul of the universe. Finding inner peace is an integral part of spirituality and it plays a major role in a person’s spiritual growth. Nobody can give you inner peace, it is something that you must discover on your own.
Finding Inner Peace and Happiness
There is no formula as such. Inner peace is not something that you can get at the press of a button or in exchange for a hundred dollar bill. It is about managing your mind and your energies. Inner peace is a state where your mind is absolutely still, a state where your whole body and soul experiences a newfound freedom, a state of being bathed in a sea of positive energy, a state where you are cleansed of all traces of negativity. Achieving such a state is something that is rarer than the rarest of happenings. To understand what I’m talking about, here’s a simple exercise for you to do.
Stop all other activities that you may be doing right now. Lean back into your chair and close your eyes. Let your breathing remain normal. Listen to the sound of your breathing. As you inhale, feel the purity of oxygen entering your lungs and spreading to each and every part of your body. As you exhale, visualize all the negativities and impurities leaving your body in the form of carbon dioxide. Now slowly, start clearing your mind of all thoughts. It’s difficult and it requires a considerable amount of patience, practice and mind control. In technical terms, just format your mind and shut down your brain. Remain still and let your body go about doing its involuntary functions. Experience the sudden stillness and the silence that you hear. I bet you have never known silence to be so loud. Experience a state of oneness with the universe. Break all the mental chains that may be holding you back. Accept yourself as being someone special in the Creator’s scheme of things. The state that you now find yourself in is known as inner peace. It is known as inner peace because you are at peace with yourself.
In addition to the above exercise, keep the following things in mind. They too contribute in the pursuit of inner peace:
Be grateful. Stop cribbing about what you don’t have. Be grateful for all that you have, for all that the Almighty has blessed you with. Look around you. There are millions of people who are less fortunate than you. Gratefulness has a special connection with peace within.
Accept yourself the way you are. You are what you are, for a reason. Don’t complain. Be comfortable with yourself, your body, your mind, your soul. It will help in lessening your internal conflicts.
Meditate more frequently. Regular meditation as well as certain yoga meditation techniques help in getting control over the mind in a positive way. Connect with nature. If possible, take time out and visit a quiet place – it could be a park, a lake, a hilltop or somewhere in the countryside. Close your eyes, disconnect yourself from the world and connect with nature. It is an amazing way of discovering inner peace.
These were some things you should keep in mind if you wish to find inner peace. Once again, nobody can give it to you. It is something for you to discover and cherish.
By Tintin
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The world isn’t just the way it is.
It’s how you understand it to be.
When it comes to the following, you need to chill out, change your thinking, and adjust your approach.
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But why try to find happiness through spiritual life? Isn’t modern materialistic civilization all about attaining peace and happiness? We build great skyscrapers, fast cars and miles of freeways. We have paid vacations, TV sets, free hospitals and sick leave, Social Security and welfare benefits. Government, planning commissions and scientific research are all aimed at providing some measure of peace and happiness. Yet the rate of mental illness climbs steadily, and the crime rates rise even faster. The streets are crawling with unstable individuals, and road rage is increasing. This materialistic civilization is not working; in fact, it is collapsing. A happy man does not feel driven to kill his family and himself just because he loses his job or house; yet this happening with increasing frequency even in our ‘advanced’ materialistic civilization.
We like to hold the conceit that Western society is exploiting every area of human knowledge to provide peace and happiness. But we are only beginning to realize that we have overdeveloped the material aspect of existence at the expense of the deeper emotional and spiritual aspects, and now we are paying a heavy price for that strategic error. It is easy to complain about the degeneration of moral and spiritual fiber in America and the world today, but the real task is to do something about it. The only place to start is within ourselves. Look carefully inside, truly and objectively, and you will see moments when you are irrationally angry, or passionately believe in something that you find out later is completely untrue. When you learn to see those moments as they are—see them clearly, cleanly and without condemnation—then you will be on your way up and out of the disease of material consciousness.
You can’t make radical changes in the pattern of your life until you drop your filters, drop your identifications and habitual judgments, and allow yourself to see yourself exactly as you are. As soon as you do that, changes flow naturally. You don’t have to force or struggle to obey rules dictated to you by some authority. You just change automatically, improving by the power of consciousness itself.
But arriving at a realistic view of yourself is quite a task. You must drop all pretension, all self-serving justification and rationalization, and really see who you are and how you are, without illusion, judgment or resistance of any kind. You must see how you function as a social being and the effect you have on those around you. You must see your duties and obligations to your fellow human beings, and above all, your responsibility to yourself as an individual spiritual living being. And you’ve got to see all of that clearly and as a unit, a single gestalt of interrelationship. It sounds complex, but this insight often occurs in a single instant. The result of achieving this insight is deep understanding and serene happiness.
The ancient Esoteric Teaching anticipated Freud and other psychologists by thousands of years. It says: “What you are now is the result of what you did in the past. What you will be tomorrow will be the result of what you do now. The consequences of an evil mind will follow you, like the cart follows the ox that pulls it. The consequences of a purified mind also will follow you as inevitably as your own shadow. No one can do more for you than your own purified mind. A well-disciplined mind brings happiness.” The spiritual process of meditation purifies the mind, just like bathing regularly purifies the body. And it prevents disease in the same way as bathing does. It cleanses the thought process of the spiritual infections that keep you snarled up in emotional bondage. It brings a state of tranquility and awareness, a state of concentration and insight.
In our society, we believe that knowledge makes a cultured person civilized. Material civilization, however, only polishes the personality superficially. Subject an ordinary educated and sophisticated gentleman to stresses of war or economic collapse, and see what happens. It is one thing to obey the law because you know the penalties and fear the consequences; it is something else entirely to obey the law because you have cleansed yourself from the greed that would make you steal, and the hatred that would make you kill. Civilization changes man superficially, on the outside. Meditation softens him within, melts him through and through, and transfigures him into a higher state of consciousness.
Meditation is the cleansing crucible fire that slowly purifies the soul from ignorance through understanding. The greater your understanding, the more flexible and tolerant you can be, the more compassionate you can be. You become like a perfect parent or an ideal teacher; you are ready to forgive and forget. You feel love towards others because you understand them, and you understand others because you have understood yourself. You have looked deeply inside, seen your own illusion and your own human failings. You have seen your own humanity and learned to forgive and to love yourself. Once you have learned compassion for yourself, compassion for others is automatic. An accomplished meditator has achieved a profound understanding of life, and while seeing life realistically for what it inevitably is, he also relates to the world with deep and uncritical love.
Meditation is a lot like cultivating a piece of land. To make a field out of a forest, first you have to clear the trees and pull out the stumps. Then you till the soil and fertilize it. Then you sow your seed, irrigate the field and remove the weeds, and then you harvest your crops. Similarly, to change your consciousness, first you have to clear out the various irritants that are in the way, pull them right out by the root so that they won’t grow back. Then you fertilize, pumping energy and discipline into the mental soil. Then you sow the seed and you harvest your crops of faith, morality, spiritual consciousness and wisdom.
Faith and morality, by the way, have a special meaning in the context of authentic spiritual life. The Esoteric Teaching does not advocate faith in the sense of believing something because it is written in a book, attributed to a prophet or taught to you by some authority figure. Of course we have books and teachers, but what we mean by faith is the confidence born of direct personal experience. It is knowing that something is true because you have seen it work, because you have observed that very same thing within yourself. In the same way, morality is not a ritualistic obedience to some exterior, imposed code of behavior, but a deep sense of knowing what is right based on insight and compassion.
The purpose of authentic spiritual life is personal growth and transformation. The person that goes into the experience of meditation is not the same person who comes out the other side. Authentic meditation changes your character by a process of sensitization, by making you deeply aware of your own thoughts, words and deeds. Your arrogance evaporates and your antagonism dries up. Your mind becomes still and calm, and the ups and downs of your life smooth out. Thus properly performed meditation reduces tension, fear, and worry. Restlessness recedes and passion moderates. Things begin to fall into place and your life becomes a glide instead of a struggle. Meditation sharpens your concentration and thinking power. Then little by little your subconscious motives and mechanics become clear to you. Your intuition sharpens. The precision of your thought increases, and gradually you come to a direct knowledge of things as they really are, without prejudice and without illusion. All this happens through understanding, insight and transcendental knowledge.
So is all this reason enough to bother with meditation and spiritual life? Scarcely. These are just promises, words on paper. There is only one way you will ever know if meditation and spiritual life are worth the effort: make up your mind to do it, learn from an expert how to do it right, then do it and experience the benefits yourself.
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A World in Confusion Cultivating Inner Clarity
by Madisyn Taylor
When the world is in chaos,
we can still have our own inner peace
and maintain a sense of calm in sea of unrest.
People who maintain their sense of calm when things around them are in a state of flux and confusion are always wonderful to be around. We feel calmer just being near them, as if they have activated our own sense of inner peace. From them we learn that we can be calm, even when everything around us is in turmoil, because we know that no matter what happens, this inner sense of calm will help us to function well. Often, times of confusion are the times that enable us to find that part of ourselves that knows how to cope, and how to be a light to others in the storm.
If we allow ourselves to be thrown off balance by every piece of disturbing news that comes our way, we may be relying too much on our emotions. On the other hand, our thoughts may also be unreliable at times like these, as they chatter on endlessly about what might happen next. If our feelings and thoughts activate one another in a hectic way, then we become caught up in the confusion that surrounds us. However, if we can locate the stillness at the center of our hearts, we can find composure in almost any situation. In addition, we provide a safe place for our friends and family, who are also prone to taking on the confusion of a world in flux.
It helps to remember that we don’t need to completely understand what’s happening right now, nor do we need to be able to predict the future. Most of us just want to find our way to being at peace with whatever happens, and we can find this peace inside. Cultivating our inner clarity with meditation, journaling, and reading words that inspire us, will lead us to that place inside us that’s already there, just waiting.
we learn to live by our own rules….
and break the society’s.
even if people call you names,
the monent that we know ourselves,
is the very moment
that we give our hearts and soul
the power to live a joyful and glorious life.
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by Dr. Darryl Pokea
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The sovereign cure for worry is prayer
William James, The Father of Psychology
We have many diverse names and spiritual beliefs that express the Divine. We are all manifestations of the Creator throughout Creation. As John in his gospel expressed, “God is Love.”There is only one kind of Love. As Love is expressed through different individuals in different situations, it appears as though there are many kinds of Love, many levels and intensities. Love is the same and from the same Source in its multitude of expressions.
Love has been segregated, dissected, and disintegrated into many types: friendship, romance, maternal, paternal, patriotic, etc. This reflects the mind’s attempt to reduce, compartmentalize, and categorize love; and this separates it from the heart. Herein lies the mind’s attempt at disintegration. When the mind excludes the heart, unity with Oneness, and the experience of love is curtailed. This is the mind’s reductionism in its attempt to reduce fear through intellectual certitude. The illusions that are created by any of us assuming that our knowledge is complete, creates a vacuum in the heart. The fullness of our being is no longer orchestrated by our Spirit and the Creator when we do so. This is the real danger for all of us when we arrogantly see ourselves as the best or only expert merely because of our training or knowledge base. St. Paul clearly points out this illusion when he says, “if you have all the knowledge of everything, but have not Love, you have nothing at all.”
As we feel the connection of the Divine within, then we become conscious of Love. When we feel the Love within, we are able to give it to the world and we no longer are desperately driven to seek it in the world. With this realization, we also may feel that Love reflected back to us from the world. This detachment is unconditional Love. Our existence and all creation in the Universe bear witness to Love. Love is simply there. We each decide how much we want to consciously participate in it.
Love is synergistic. It is a blending,
a harmonious symphony of our Spirit
expressing itself, through mind and body.
Our conscious participation in Love integrates
and balances our awareness that we are Spirit.
We cannot separate ourselves from Love.
We can attempt to exclude it from our consciousness, but it remains there. Any exclusion sets up cascades of disequilibria and imbalance in our perceptions of whom we ourselves are, who each other are, and the interconnectedness of all the diverse life and forms of being in existence. Any perception of separation distorts mind, body, & Spirit connectedness and narrows perception in a linear fashion. In this state of mind, we selectively attend to merely the physical aspects of this world. The mind, in this limited state of consciousness, views everything as disconnected. It begins to distort by magnifying negative details as it loses its perception of the interrelationship between all things. Any glimpses of the “big picture” are lost.
Divine Love, that we all can participate in through prayer, meditation, and loving intentional service and therapies, does harmonize the bodies and minds of our fellow human beings. As St. Francis prayed, “Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,” we all may be utilized as instruments to one another in the conscious healing of our species. As we evolve, prayer and meditation will become essential to all health care, as guiding expressions of Love. They are just as important as the actual medical or other noetic interventions, and these too can be expressions of Love.
Prayer and meditation are the avenues of conscious reconnection to the Divine Love in us all. A study completed by Duke University, showed that prayer deeply impacted patients who underwent angioplasty for coronary blockages. The study was double blind, meaning that neither patients nor staff knew who was being prayed for. In the same study, another set of patients undergoing the same procedure, received noetic therapy (guided imagery, touch therapy, or relaxation therapy.) The names of the patients to be prayed for by various religious sects, were E-mailed to Jerusalem, Buddhist monasteries in Nepal and France, Carmelite nuns in Baltimore, Fundamentalists, Moravians, Baptists and Unitarian groups.
Comprehensive physiological monitoring during and after the procedure, showed that the patients, who were prayed for by the 7 religious sects, did 50-100% better than patients who were not prayed for by these groups. In the noetic therapy group, there was a lesser, but 30-50% trend of improvement. Perhaps the difference in improvement between the two groups can be accounted for by the principle that “when we let go and let God,” we are more connected to a patient’s real needs, than when we attempt to standardize the intervention. Spirit doesn’t make any mistakes as it guides the mind, and the mind in turn guides the body. More research studies will be necessary to decipher scientifically, that this is the case. What is important from the study, is that both the groups prayed for, and groups receiving noetic therapies, did better than those who received only the medical intervention of angioplasty (catheterization.) Susanne Crater, the nurse in this catheterization study, stated that the results were dramatic enough, “to change my practice. It is possible to bring a calming, healing space into a hospital, which can sometimes seem cold and sterile.”
Everyone in health care, or service to anyone, must realize that what we do to others we do to ourselves. In health care, it is particularly important to treat the patients with reverence as we wish to be treated ourselves. This allows the channels of Love (that accelerates healing) to flow. As the Love flows, then we have the direct experience of the Creator within us. In this way, we are Divine instruments and we become one with those we serve, and realize that we are not separate from one another or the Divine.
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by: Deborah Fairfull
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In this article, guest author Deborah Fairfull, talks about some difficult experiences in her life and how she overcame these and found inner peace.
When you are surrounded by financial doom and gloom, natural disasters and riots — it is easy to feel negative and uncertain about the future. However this is exactly the time you need to dig down deep inside yourself and tap into your inner strength. This wise, all knowing part of yourself has the ability to transform your life into one that is fulfilling, peaceful and harmonious.
During my life I have experienced many challenging times. The one thing I have discovered without exception, is that when I have been able to accept my current situation it has allowed me to relax, tap into my internal wisdom and my life has begun to flow once more.
Some of my personal challenges have included:
I used my tumultuous, unstable times as alchemy for inner peace so I could learn to experience inner stability despite what was going on around me. At the time I couldn’t understand why all these challenging things were happening to me, but I now appreciate them for the gift that they were.
1) Make peace with your past. Worrying over and reliving the past can take you away from enjoying the present, feeling stuck and prevent you flowing with life.
2) Make your mind your friend. Your mind takes you away from your peace by creating worry and stress. Becoming aware of your thoughts, belief and attitudes helps you to transcend a fearful mind and instead create a life that is loving and stable.
3) Your reactions are like gold. A reaction occurs when someone behaves aggressively (fight) or withdraw (flight) in a pressurized situation rather than responding from their empowered self.
However, if you are able to sit with the uncomfortable feeling that the reaction induces, rather than blaming the other person, you will heal that automatic survival response as you tap into a power greater than the reaction. You need to feel it to heal it. Next time you are in a similar situation, chances are you will not let the external circumstance take you away from your peace.
4) Let your intuition be your guide. Your intuition is like your personal GPS designed to guide you safely through life. It is your inner voice of wisdom that knows exactly what is right for you.
However it is common that we override our intuition and do what we “should” do, driven often by a fearful mind. If we make decisions based on anxiety and stress often they are not the very best decisions we can make for ourselves. When you calm your mind you are better equipped to listen to your intuition and create a life that is more flowing and peaceful.
When you face or have faced challenging times sometimes it is easy to fall into the illusion that something is wrong with you. That you are wrong, damaged or not good enough in some way. This is the ego trying to strengthen its grip.
However, if you can remind yourself that despite any hurts you have been through you are always a divine loving individual you will be able to find that inner peace at the worst of times. When we learn to love, no matter how badly people may have treated us, we step into our true power. This gives us true strength and stability, and we remain stable and balanced despite what is going on around us.
If you’ve gone through particularly challenging experiences in your life, tell us how you overcame these and found the strength and peace within to move forward.
i will always remember this day
when time is endless and no words to say
i am blessed to have felt this way…
love never left… it always stays…
and thats when
forever becomes a place.
i want to hold you and stay with you
and shower you with a love so true
you are a blessing… i am blessed too
we love a love that they cannot erase
and that is why,
forever is our place.
i’ve been feeling very lightheaded and intoxicated the past few days.. couple of weeks. especially after drawing and writing about it. i literally float out of my body and could fly… one person said she could feel my inner peace through my drawings… and she knows i am grounded. i told her that yes, internally, my cup is so full that it is overflowing and the only way to keep filling it up is through sharing it with others…. i am loved and i am a loving person. i am blessed with a good heart and kindness that i wish to impart with others. i may have cut ties and burned bridges the previous weeks but now i know that they were essential to my journey because they hinder me from my growth. i wish they would understand that sometimes it takes a lot to be a part of my life and if i feel being cornered and judged, i cannot allow that in my life.
other than that, i am a person. first and foremost and i am intoxicatingly enjoying every minute of my extraordinary journey of the life that i chose to live. a magical and seriously way out of this world life that i cannot put my two cents on. it simply just is ….
life is great.love is all that i could ever need and i know, He up there is doing everything He can to get me through where i needed to be, to do …
life simply is anything but ordinary. but in order to live a very extraordinary life, we have to give up alot of things that make it ordinary. give up alot of people that make life mundane. i firmly believe in my heart and soul that we were brought here for a higher cause and not just to do ordinary stuff and be secure and yet still be unhappy and discontented… and disconnected..
life rocks! big time… and it rocks even more when you have love inside your heart.
life can be
a little close to formality
that we cannot
live alot.
shed off some skin
and rebel from what is seen
to be right even if
it may cause some rift
as long as you go for the shift.
…..
the shift to be higher
and stronger than you
to unleash all your power
to be nothing but true.
freedom to love and to create
the love that people love to berate
let it go and just be
true to your core
regardless of the freakin’ formality
they didn’t know there is so much more….
take the plunge… do the dive
let it go… be sooo alive.
when we were young,
all we wanted was to grow up
it was a song the heart sang
and it never stopped.
and now that we’ve grown
we live a life we’ve never known….
we meet people an lose them
others we keep, some we grow apart
but the best friends we’ll always keep
are the ones who touched us too deep..
———
life is
precious…
it can’t
be that serious..
just breathe in
breathe out…,
feel what isn’t seen..
believe without a doubt.
that life is lived
and there is so much to give..
close your eyes…
release the havoc
….
swing back and forth
in a hamock
….
sing your inner peace..
and be in a natural state of bliss…
i am loved. i have love
i have everything blessed from above
joy that i cannot hoard
so i try to spread it all over the world.
the world that i am sitting on
will live forever long after i’m gone.
this is all too real…
i laugh, i cry.. and i feel
i know love is all we could ever have
and there arent enough words…
with love…
i am sitting on top of the world.
——
our world babeee….
a few days ago, i was trying to figure out what to do with the gifts i am blessed with. i had a hard time figuring it out. i cannot start with the UNMASKED project because that is alread the … Continue reading
i am currently loving all the unexpected gifts i am blessed with. i know this has got to take me somewhere — big. but… lately, i keep discovering all these wonders inside that lay dormant for years and i feel like there is still so much in store for me. i also feel that the realisation of my dreams is really near. how to go about it, i don’t know… i just ride with the tide, i don’t drive. sometimes, it can be frustrating but nevertheless, surprisingly calm. even if the external aspect of my life isn’t as peaceful as it should be… [ i could totally say --- true test of peace...]
i am a multitasker. and if there is one thing i like… it is mixing and fixing everything altogether in one. so… i made a list of my “gifts” and the not so wanted character. i like the production part better… it is actually the managing slash routine that is dreadful to me.
for the book – i know that is where i am heading… only i am still not getting the right signal for that. in my heart, that is where i am truly headed. for my ego, i wish to make a big bang explosion when i am launching it… that is my soul. and that is me NAKED in front of everyone. until such time. the timing isn’t ripe yet. it is meant to help others with self improvement, empowerment,….. too much info. :–)
for the dried flowers: i have learned patience, — and the theme of my life: finding beauty in all that is not. so that is also part of me. i like the “vintage-y” feel around. i like all things classic, romantic, ….makes me remember all that i wish to be in..
posters: that is left brain and right brain with my self improvement student and frustrating friend i wish to rise above all the experiences she went through… which is the same as mine. but have not gotten around to it. oh but how she makes me “human” sometimes…. its just a matter of time, and we will combine our “charm” to make something really out of this world in our own little world ….
gosh sabrina— hurry up and ascend a D higher please! let’s rock their world!
printabilities: oh, my only window to creativity when i was with my husband… gift tags and calling cards.
photography: i bought a camera to source out my “window” when i was with my husband. -believe you me, i couldn’t write a decent poem until our beloved pet died. and since i didn’t know i could MAKE pictures then, i decided to take them. probably also because i would rather take pictures because i am supposed to be lighter by a 100lbs. and how i used to love my pictures taken when i was 100lbs lighter… [yeah...vanity is my favorite sin] – but to justify that - i used to love myself from OUTSIDE IN.
doodles/drawing: this is actually the best thing to ever happen to me— for now. because never in my wildest dream i could draw! i am so ecstatic. i used to visualize my book when i was little that the pictures were hand-drawn. but instead opted for photographs since its too impossible for me to have to draw it. nevertheless, wow…. it is all coming together now.
cooking: i do small orders from friends and yes, i too can cook. anything!
— except pastries…. too much rules for me. and i can’t break it. and it has to be timed at a certain degree… oh — i can’t do it. NOT YET i suppose.
——-
so basically, i need extra help in prayers for discerning what it really is. this is what is mind boggling. i know my purpose. i know the end of it all. it is just basically to be able to give hope to non believers of true love.. and each one of us… we start within ourselves. and when we have learn to love ourselves, we can sit quietly with ourselves… we love our own company…. and when we can finally sit quietly alone, then true love can peacefully be with us. [lets face it, if we can't be alone with ourselves, if we dislike our own company.... what makes us think others can too?]
it is just a matter of time. i am blessed with deep knowing and clear seeing (even if at times i challenge it, it smacks me right in front of my face… oh, that is probably why we both kept saying let us work on ourselves. ] ohhh!!! NOW…. [another aha moment!]
its a labyrinthine life i am living and i cannot wait to be in the center.
with HIM and him.
—-
Prayer:
Thank You Lord for making my life worth living. For helping me find meaning and making me see our purpose very clearly. i ask You not to shield me from any chances that may make me grow and be the best i can be but to give me strength and make me UNSHAKEABLE to rock their worlds for the better….
Continue to bless my kids with such understanding of the whole situation and let them open their hearts to know YOU more too.. and give their lives meaning and purpose too.
Lead me to the right people to know that i am headed in the right direction…. and I am grateful for all the random grace that You continually make me see. LEt me ROCK this life to Your liking.
coz YOU rock.
and let him lead with his heart through your wisdom. and make him FEARLESS too.
and believe in himself the way he does with me and the way i do with him.
PS. i hope you don’t mind that i hardly hear mass.
if these walls could talk are
wall candies and a
pocketful of sunshine on your walls…. ![]()
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“I [will] AM capable of loving,
regardless of whether I AM LOVED [in return]
Of giving even when I have nothing
Of WORKING HAPPILY even in the midst of difficulties
Of HOLDING out my hand, even when utterly alone and abandoned,
Of DRYING MY TEARS, even while I weep,
OF BELIEVING, even when no ONE BELIEVES in ME.” Continue reading
who knows what tomorrow brings
it comforts me that you and i sing
the melody as calming as the rain
breezy like we were young again. Continue reading
In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take, relationships we were afraid to have, and the decisions we waited too long to make. Continue reading
Happiness is found in the choices we make every day. It’s all about thinking good thoughts, speaking kind words, taking good actions, and enjoying the small things in life all while chasing after the big ones.
Here are few reminders to help you find happiness every day: Continue reading
live to greet another day so freely
yet you and i will be together to see
a love to last forever and eternity.
another day may break the snow
another night may come and go.. Continue reading
when i say it’s time for this to stop
always remember that is crap…
i only want to hear you say
that there is no way….
you are setting me free
so please… when i do all these…
always always stop me. Continue reading
only the two of us, we have a vow
that forever remain the only drive
the promised that has always been kept alive
the only start of the life that we set
years ago… even before we met. Continue reading
To let go of the future means to let go of demands, insistence, attachment, requirements, having to have, control. It means tipping your hat to life. It means blessing it. It means having happiness in mind and not requiring how it is to be funneled. Continue reading
i now truly believe, that we would always have other loves. other lovers, other partners. but true love is deeply engraved inside our hearts. that no matter how hard we try to erase it, it would only scar us even more. even if we polish our hearts, sooner or later, it will still stale and the scars we tried to wipe off will always show. true love is engraved in us. there is no running away from it. because then, it will only leave us feeling alone …in a world where we thought would be enough to compensate for the love we have always looked for all throughout our lives… Continue reading
May you come to know, see, feel, and experience more and more of that world, which is your world, which is all that is real. May you come to accept, with unconditional love, non-judgment, and non-attachment all that tempts your five lower senses into believing the unreal as being real.
- Louix Dor Dempriey Continue reading
if mr. webster could come up
with words to describe my heart
i dont think there would be enough
i dont think he’d know where to start. Continue reading
what follows the self sabotage, are temper tantrums, hurting another, flipping out, rebellious , chip on ones shoulder, about being willing to truly listen to whats being expressed to you, and through you. a complete and total neglagence towards the love of the being, a disregard for all life as it is, and a simple Continue reading
The love you can give me and the love that i
Should trust to never again deny
my heart from you and so I gamble
the love that has made me yearn and be vulnerable.
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love and light is all we need
listen to the whispers and learn to heed
that life is lived to the fullest
and the days go by so quick…
life is indeed nothing short of magic.
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